I am very familiar with this dynamic. I recently was the bull to my wife’s matador and she knows too well where to thrust the blades. I find reciting the three poisons to myself helps me recognize I am teetering into that hell. Still I am subject to my core traits and struggle to not take the bait and maintain a semblance of self love and love of my wife. I survived this most recent incident without reacting outwardly, but I did experience depression and doubt. It shows me how far I still need to travel to rid myself of suffering. Fortunately the path remains before me and my friends encourage me to stay the course. Thanks for your efforts.
I am very familiar with this dynamic. I recently was the bull to my wife’s matador and she knows too well where to thrust the blades. I find reciting the three poisons to myself helps me recognize I am teetering into that hell. Still I am subject to my core traits and struggle to not take the bait and maintain a semblance of self love and love of my wife. I survived this most recent incident without reacting outwardly, but I did experience depression and doubt. It shows me how far I still need to travel to rid myself of suffering. Fortunately the path remains before me and my friends encourage me to stay the course. Thanks for your efforts.